“I think we’re very similar, Nessa,” he whispers. “From the way you write, I can tell you’re a dark romantic like me. You like dark things.”
📖 My Dark Vanessa is not a book for everyone. It is not a book you can pick up to read on the beach. It is an in-depth look at a toxic and manipulative relationship with an unimaginable power imbalance. It is an incredible, triggering story as the author goes into exact details of the relationship between the 42-year-old teacher and 15-year-old Vanessa. And not the right kind of relationship – we are talking about the worst type.
📖 Disturbing. Disturbing is the main thought that follows you through the book. Sometimes you need to gather all your nerves to go through the darkest scenes in the book. Sometimes you want to grab Vanessa and shake her before she makes another terrible decision.
📖 When Vanessa is 15 years old, she begins an affair with her 42-year-old English professor, Jacob Strane. Desperate for his attention, Vanessa willingly complies to keep their romance a secret. Seventeen years later, Jacob is once again in the spotlight, up against sexual abuse allegations from other students. But to this day, Vanessa believes she and Jacob were in love, and that the teacher was not to blame for their actions.
📖 One thing that cropped up in our discussions – was Strane sick or evil. And it took us a very, very long time to came to some conclusion. In the end, we decided that he was psychotic – evil. All his decisions calculated and well reversed. He knew all risks and all exits. He knew exactly what he was doing. However, the whole idea that he never forgot Vanessa long time after suggested that he was a profoundly sick person as well.
📖 It’s a powerful story about grooming, sexual abuse, mind games, power imbalance, and the long-lasting effects trauma can have on a vulnerable and impressionable young girl. This book is a competitor to Vladimir’s Nabokov’s Lolita. Totally addictive and clinging with you for a long, long time after it is back on the shelf.
5 stars out of five
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